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>>[yuku]
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Extremely and Frustratingly difficult.
Only in recent weeks that I thought about this.
That I loved inadequately.
Sometimes I do good just to make satisfy others or myself.
Because I thought, "hey, I am helpful to others"
Why so? The differences are very clear in these 2 cases:
case 1: I helped Mr. xyz bought a screwdriver because in my opinion he would need it to repair something broken. And true enough, he was happy when I gave him the screwdriver and paid me back for the screwdriver.
case 2: I helped Mr. xyz bought a screwdriver because in my opinion he would need it to repair something broken. But when I gave him the screwdriver, turns out that he already owns a screwdriver, but anyhow he is willing to pay me back for the screwdriver I initially bought for him.
(After typing out the examples, I don't think they are that good, but anyway)
On the first case, I am much more happy unlike the second case. But shouldn't that be the case if my doing is purely based on love?
Probably the reason why I can be so close with some friends is none other than because it's requiting.