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Target:
1. IceTrack: article about common face in TV advertisements (english only)
2. Kejut: Monthly article about Korean News Update, data collected since Early June, article finished on end of June (Indonesia only)
3. Melet: begini saja lah

6 months have passed by.
I've failed again... (again... (again...)), but I believe this time it's not fully my fault, but because of third party involvement.

I am going to make a recap about the last 6 months.

1. I have been acting just like my operators used to do.
I may not be able to do what was told, but I always said "If you teach me, I will be able to do it".
The privilege of being an operator is that I don't have to think much and simply do. Less headache, but also less compensation.

>>62
2. About being a brand ambassador
I still remember and live just like what my previous boss used to tell me: "You have to be an example for others"
and it has a lot of meanings. One of those is what I am reminded again and again, that myself reflects the image of who I am working for.

>>63
3. About Strategic Thinking
I still remember what somebody from my previous company told me that I was the one who should think, not my operators, because they couldn't.
Now it makes even more sense.

My supervisor is someone with strategic thinking. He knows what is the impact of an action and so does what should be done to give more impact and when.

Therefore it's necessary (especially when dealing with other departments) to report to the supervisor before answering or giving responses.

My 32nd day at work.
The company that I worked for struck by a global news. Our franchise in NY was accused for alleged money laundering violation involving Iran.
We are the third company originated from the same country which immersed in scandals.
The company was also struck by a local news. Not really a news, just readers' opinion, or more precisely... complaint because he was supposed to get a gift, but somehow he hasn't and it has been a month. I did the calculation for that.
Is this a sign?

Feel stuck. Feel stressed. Definitely not in a good mood.
Feel not satisfied. Feel not creative. Definitely not being positive.

Temporary solution: start to write little things about me again.

What inspired me today are:
- Chitato can be more addictive than cigarettes + it is better than others because it can make you feel dumb (goblok).
- It may be a good idea to have all daily tools in android device. Not just apps, but also tooth brush, razor, ... just to remind me that I don't forget to do it (feel lazy).
- Handover is difficult, not because I am possessive, but I am not good in explaining things (yet)

This is a story about a friend.

There was a girl which he never met, he never seen, but everyone just kept talking about her. He couldn't help to be curious about her.

Through random chat, he got to know what had happened to her.
Through group chat, he got to see a glimpse of her figures (she's pretty).
Through facebook, he got to know their friends-in-common.

His brain seemed to accept the idea that he was into her.
Whenever he heard someone talking about her, he unintentionally put an effort to overheard the conversation.
Whenever he saw someone with similar figure with her, neural impulse seemed to be sent automatically, so his heart beat slightly faster.
Whenever he was alone, he had an idea to think about her.

The idea of her circled around his daily life and it seemed that he realized that he liked his fantasy about her.
Unfortunately, that was just His Idea.
On the other hand, She had No Idea.

I thought that it could represent the term: One-Sided-Love.

>>68
1. peer pressure
2. virtual is sometimes more acceptable than physical
3. idea is always Indah

>>69
1. Nggak ah, itu mungkin lebih mirip indirect endorsement
2. Berkhayal itu memang lebih mudah ya...^^;

The story continues...

Fortunately, he realized that as well.
He considered the act of accidentally-bumping-into-her, but he didn't know where she's going to be at.
He considered sending a message through digital channels, but he didn't know how to start the conversation.
He considered asking a favor to one of his friend-in-common, but his introvert nature took it as a No-Go action.
He run out of ideas.

In life there are challenges.
To encounter the really challenging ones, we have two options: to-give-up and to-hope
My friend choose to hope and pray to be given an opportunity.

And the story continues...

One day he met a friend.
His friend mentioned that he and other friends were planning to have a trip just outside the town and offered him to .
As he hadn't met him and the other friends for a while, he expressed his interest to take part in the trip.
Several days later, he was included in digital conversation about the trip.
He found out that the girl was interested to join as well.
That was a good chance to get along.

Prayer is always answered...

People used to meet up and open a discussion to brainstorm ideas, finalize plans, get into an agreement.
Those days were gone and replaced by online chat room, group chat, and email circulation.

That exact digital medium helped my friend to know things about the trip, including who would show up and what were everyone's expectation.
As a group they seemed to do it as a weekend getaway, but everyone certainly had different reasons.
Some did it because they didn't want to be alone.
Some did it to bond with the group as they were new.
Some did it to maintain close relationship with everyone.
Some did it because somebody else joined the trip.

The last one seemed to be the reason for my friend to join in, but once he discovered that he wasn't the only one, someone else would also be there and that someone else had already had the upper hand.
He decided to not move forward and cancelled it.

Prayer is always answered. Sometimes it's a No, sometimes it's a Yes, sometimes we personally decided to make it a No.

It was like looking at a very moist red velvet cake showcased at an already closed store when he was severely craving it.
It was very tempting, but in this situation it was tricky to get it.
You might still get it by
breaking and entering
or chased down the owner to reopen the store,
but the cake might not taste as delicious as it was supposed to be.
The other option was to give up.

Similar to that case, my friend chose not to pursue it further.
However, it wasn't to give up. It was to let go.

There are several wisdoms to justify that may not be the right decision like:
- Fight for your love
- Love is blind
However,
- Fight for your loved one to be happy, not fight for yourself
- Love is blindly recognized my own condition, but aware of her condition

My friend told me
there were nights when sleep was not easy, even though he was the-sleepyhead-type.

The air was heavier and he just could not breathe properly.
The moon shine less brightly and he found it was hard to see clearly.
The temperature felt unusually hotter and moister and he was sweating a lot.

It felt like missing a piece of puzzle in the middle of an almost complete jigsaw.
It felt like dropping a pearl back into the ocean when he just found it.
It felt like breaking a glass into million pieces and everything pierced.

He looked O-Kay, but he actually wasn't.

Human's feeling is complex, it's hard to put words to describe it.

One day, there was a gathering event. i was there. There were a lot of people and I only knew about half of them. The girl was there too.

Then she vanished just like the wind... quietly... quickly...

I am grateful for today, in which...
- I arrived safely and secured my usual seat
- I managed to notice a different answer between the trainer's and the book
- I went to a mall nearby without paying any parking fee since I didn't park there
- The girl sat in front of me told me about her week and it seemed mine was still better
- The guy that I filled up his attendance (with a made-up signature) showed up and forgave me for what I did (filled up his attendance)
- The policeman politely pointed up what I did wrong and helped me to pay my fine because of crossing the street mark

I am grateful today because...
- I have a plenty of sleep
- I managed to attend the afternoon mass
- I get buy 1 get 1 free at Starbuck and the waiters are very polite
- I made progress in my study

I am grateful today because...
- I arrived on time for the second time this week
- I attended a meeting which didn't require extra work
- I met an old friend and she was progressing in her career rapidly as she was newly hired by another company
- The laundry guy was still willing to pick up laundry despite of late hour