I would like to say thanks to my Lord,

I would like to say thanks to my Lord,
I am sinking in a mud of unhappiness
I would like to blame everyone around me
for the yelling, the anger and the shaming
for pulling me down, and hurt me.

I am yearning to feel safe and warm.
I have been looking for someone to protect me emotionally
To tell me "It is alright, I am here beside you"
"I love you and I will care for you"
"I will try to understand you, and I will try not to hurt you."

However, pain surrounded me
I gave my love and my hope to others
and received back harsh words and disappointments.

I want to look good and lovely,
but others seem to see all the bad things in me.
I can't even love myself.

But I would like to say thank you to my Lord
for He is the one who own me
and taking care of me
and He sees me as lovely

He is the one who stands by my side when others bullied me.
When others isolated me, he is my only friend.
He had laid His life for me.

So it is alright.
It is alright to continue to love
and to hope
and to forgive

It is alright to receive harsh words
scolding
shaming
rejection
disappointment

The pain in my heart is just a reminder that all of these are temporary, that the world is coming to an end
That all is not right, there are many things to fight for
That it is not fair, and it is not alright to run away

So get up, my spirit
ask for courage and strength from the Lord!
Even when your heart is bleeding, get up and fight
Even when you feel lonely and disappointment, embrace those feelings as your friend.
Joy has never left you, he is just there, blocked by others.

Because from now on, I would no longer be lonely
I have many friends: sadness, melancholy, stress, disappointment, heartbreak, rejection, happiness, joy, elation, excitement, fun and many others. They are faithful, and they will be with me until the last day of my life. So I no longer need to run away from them, or try to reject them. It is alright for them to stay with me, for I have my Lord who takes care of me. For every wound has been borne by my Lord on the cross. So I will continually bear mine.